Curse

My head is pounding

I have all these ideas flowing in and out

But having no idea how to complete them

That's my curse

Not being able to get what is in my head

Out into the world for everyone to see

It's a burden

It makes my head pound

Writing, scratching out, writing, scratching out

I write down sentences then cross them out

And start all over

Never liking what I put

Or what I draw

So many ideas are pouring into my head

But none flow out

How I wish they would flow out

But that's my curse

Always second guessing myself

I'm sure that doesn't help

But I want it all to be perfect

But yet I don't at the same time

My mind is testing me

Seeing if I am serious with it all

Serious about my future

But I don't know what I want my future to hold

Blabbering on and on

I don't even know what I'm saying

Then...BAM...mind block

How do I go on...Damn curse

But then at times

Times like this

 It all flows out of me

I'm not even thinking

I don't know what I am typing

It is just appearing on the screen

I don't know where it is coming from

But my head pounds

Pounds and pounds

All my ideas

Then without warning

It stops