Afraid

Looking out the window

I wouldn't mind time standing still

I can hardly breath

Time is choking me

So many choices so many decisions 

I am questioning who I am

And who I want to be

There are too many voices inside my head

Telling me what to do

Each one trying to out yell the other

Everyday is another excruciating headache

Where is the relief

How do I escape

I am afraid

Afraid of growing up

Afraid

afraid

afraid

I look at myself and wonder who I really am

I do a double take

Behind this soft exterior

Lies a warrior

I realize that I am strong

But falter occasionally 

And one day soon 

You and the world will know I was here

                                      

I am not afraid anymore

I 

embrace 

the 

unknown

Yet I am

afraid